My Body Shame

My Body Shame

So I have been wanting to write this post for a while as I am unhappy with my body. Most of my life I have been size 6-8 but since I hit my 30’s I put on weight, mainly round my stomach but also my chest, face and arms. I am of a petite frame and with the added weight and have become very disproportionate. I lost it for a while but then put it on again and now I am the largest I have ever been and I just don’t like it. My weight hasn’t prevented me living life to the full however, when I go shopping for clothes both Eastern and Western I realise how much my weight bothers me. This also applies when I go on beach holidays, I feel very conscious in a swimming costume/bikini.

A majority of the nice Indian outfits are designed to be worn on women who are no larger than a size 6/8. Many of them show the mid-drift or are cut in such a way they really do not suit anyone over this size.

Whenever I go clothes shopping for western clothes, I have the same issue, I find lovely clothes but again these clothes look awful on anyone who is large than a size 8/10 or has boobs and a belly.

My issue is not with exercise as I do this regularly and mix up my routine. My issue is with food. As some of you know I dislike my job and it’s environment and this contributes to bad eating habits. I eat lots of fruit and some veg but also lots of junk food. I eat junk food out of boredom, stress and living in two places does help. It can be a bad cycle of eating as I feel bad, then feeling worse as I continue to put on weight and emotional eating again. This is also affecting my health too as my hair and skin are reflecting this.

Another wake up call for me is that I have now had shingles twice in the last 8 months. Unfortunately I am one of these rare people who is prone to getting both chicken pox and shingles more than once. I have now had chicken pox 5 times and have had shingles approximately 4 times. Shingles can be the result of a weakened immune system, stress and exhaustion. I have no doubt the junk food is contributing to this. My life style is hectic as I look after my ill mum who lives in another town so I end up living out of the boot of my car. Like most other people I also have many other responsibilities too. I am aware I need to make some serious lifestyle changes.

I am lucky enough to have won a voucher which I am putting towards a one week boot camp and am really hoping this kick starts me into eating better and keeping up with all the other positive changes and habits I aim to learn whilst I am there. I am also planning to careful select invitations to places and social dinners, making sure there really are healthy options for me.

Do you have any issue with your body? Are you trying to lose weight? Do you comfort eat and love food? Do you get frustrated when buying clothes?



  1. August 3, 2016 / 10:57 pm

    He suraangi, I understand the struggle with wanting something, but not having the patience till u see results. Don’t ever forget you are enautifuo no matter what. Be patient and u will get results you are working hard to get.


  2. August 4, 2016 / 12:27 pm

    Hello Nital, I would never known that Indian clothes are usually so small! Especially when I see fabulous saris around. I know it’s easier said than done but having healthier snack options is a great start. I can be also a big snack eater but since I swapped crisps for carrots with humous I do not tend to think ‘Oh I would like crisps’ because I already have something to eat. Did you try to write down everything you eat with times in a diary? It helps to see when the biggest cravings appear and make changes.

    Iga Berry

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